I didn't write that quote by the way, but when I read it I wished I did.
I am still in the process of understanding the full meaning of this. What I do know is that my choice to be a mother has taught me SO MUCH about love, about asking for what I deserve and about accepting each lesson along the way.
I accept that my life has WHOLESALE CHANGED. Some of us respond right away to this new role as though this was our pre-destined path and others (ahem) s.t.r.u.g.g.l.e. It took a couple rounds until I learned to love the new and let go of the old.
Universe? I get it. I know you are watching me and know that I wasn't uncomfortable enough to put on my big girl pant(ies) so you stepped in.
Can I love you THIS much? I didn't think so until that moment. To love and to trust and to allow my heart to explode to that level was a miracle unto itself. I discovered that in order to love another meant that I needed to fill my cup first :
Deserve? Who me? Yeah ... I come from that hard core work ethic, suck it up, work your fingers to the bone kinda family. Where did that leave me? Bony. I was 13 lbs under my pre-pregnancy weight by 8 months post-partum. I needed to do it ALL.ON.MY.OWN as that is what strong mammas do.
We need each other, we deserve a community of people who we allow to enter in and love us like we know we deserve.
I will bring food. I will teach you yoga (or at least to breathe). I will support you through the process of getting your little love to sleep and then ... you do you, deal?
Sabrina Banadyga -