I HAD NO IDEA how sleep (or lack of) would affect me, not to mention the changes to every cell of me that happened when I said “yes” to being a mother. When I crossed that threshold to motherhood at 10:38 pm on October 6th 2015 I felt as though I could have stayed awake until my sweet daughter Malia was at least school age. She was so precious, so delicious. I didn’t want to miss one single moment. That love that everyone tells you would make your heart grow x2, its real and it literally took my breath away.
No one could have prepared me for the joys and the sorrows that were to come. One of my dear friends told me that the first few months would be hell. As a soon-to-be-mother I thought – no way, not me, how hard can it be, I’ve been through hell and back (a couple times), I’ve got this …. until I didn’t.
I was hit hard by sleep deprivation that started after a very challenging birth. I felt perhaps that I wouldn't make it across that threshold and Malia would know life without her mom. I survived (clearly) and then hit some pretty all-time lows with very little sleep to call my own. I was humbled, on my knees, wishing that I could just rest and wake up (more than 2 hours later) to a sane mind and a peaceful heart. I didn’t sleep for months and I was losing my mind, in fact I lost it one day while walking with Malia one rainy spring day.
It was that moment that I remembered a conversation I had with another mom in an elevator, eyes dry, weary and squinting behind sunglasses. I simply asked “how is your little one sleeping?” in that desperate attempt to connect and hope that my misery would find company, if only for one elevator ride. She told me about a weesleep Vancouver sleep trainer and how the process changed her life, and of course her bebe.
I found my way back home after Malia had fallen asleep in the carrier, put her down (with moves as though I may detonate a nuclear bomb) and started some online research for Vancouver sleep training. I am quite decisive, focused and determined when something feels true to me, when it resonates and when I feel I am ready. I was ready for the tough love, yet gentle and compassionate, that was only going to be the beginning of understanding love on my journey through motherhood.
Weesleep baby and toddler sleep training gave me my life back. We went from pacifier, swaddle, hold and rock to sleep and waking every 2 hours to a 10 hour sleep the first night. When I awoke with heart palpitations I was certain that someone had either kidnapped her or she had stopped breathing. Nope, sleeping peacefully in her lovely nursery, all independent like that. It was only a matter of days until I got my life back, and Malia became a totally chill, centered, confident bebe. We were both ready to take on the world.
I am beyond excited that my life has allowed me this opportunity to bring this gift to other tired moms, dads and bebes. Looking forward to being part of this parenthood journey with you. XO
Sabrina Banadyga -